Hello, my name is David Uttley. I have decided to create this blog for 4D Picture for a couple of reasons:
- To inspire other cancer patients and convince them that a diagnosis is NOT the end. It’s the start of a new chapter – one that we each can shape. We can choose the words and the pictures.
- To help educate others about cancer treatments and processes – especially Skin Cancer (Melanoma)
Since 2013, when the initial diagnosis of malignant melanoma on my back was made due to a “rogue mole” on my right shoulder blade, I have been on a challenging journey. The cancer was at Stage 1b, with a Breslow thickness of only 0.8mm. Although seemingly harmless, it marked the beginning of a serious battle. This diagnosis not only altered my perspective on life but also introduced me to a world of resilience and strength that I never knew existed within me. Every step of this adventure has been a testament to the power of the human spirit in overcoming adversity. From the countless doctor’s appointments and treatments to the unwavering support of my loved ones, each experience has shaped my understanding of courage and perseverance.
When I cast my mind back to the times that I accidentally got sunburnt I can think of one occasion when I had fallen asleep in the sun after playing football on a beach and swimming in the sea. I remember the absolutely horrific pain that I had to endure for the next few days as my back had blistered so very badly – I could hardly move!!
If I only knew then what I know now things would be so different. I was 15 and it was 1979. Suncream and the sensible approach to the sun’s UV had not really taken shape back then. What I didn’t know was that I would pay a very high price later in life.
Once our son had disappeared off to university in about 2011 my wife and I started to holiday in remote areas and explore on foot often in the heat of the mid-day sun. Each day I would love to chill out in a nice pool and soak the heat of the day away. We were in Andalucía, Spain when she spotted a mole on my back that was “looking different”.
Back home in the UK I went to see the GP and was immediately referred to a dermatologist who promptly removed the mole. They initially diagnosed it as a Basal Cell Carcinoma (BCC) and I was not to worry. However, some 6 weeks later my world was shattered with a telephone call to say that they were wrong it was MALIGNANT MELANOMA – STAGE 1. They actually needed to cut more skin away for a clear margin!!
Those early days of thoughts varied so much from day to day. Thinking about all the “What if, but can we, are you sure?” I had to come to terms with the fact that my skin was damaged to the extent that the skin cells were causing a higher risk of more cancer. Days on my own were horrible as a dark cloud often came over me and my efforts to stay positive were being constantly nibbled by the demons of cancer within me.
I had to get a grip. Throwing myself into work was a welcome relief. It took my mind away from the reality of my situation. My son was at University, I was married and I had a best friend called Norman – a fantastic Border Terrier. He knew how to make me smile – he never failed.
Every day was different but the negatives started to fade as time went on. I was having consultations with my Dermatology Team and they were helping me every time I saw them. Self-examination of lymph node basins were extremely important to keep a watchful eye for any “bumps/ lumps” that suddenly appeared.
Here’s a useful link to demonstrate how to check: https://youtu.be/gsaJF63QRZw?si=CmfIr9Yw90lrjHi3
Despite the uncertainties that come with facing a life-threatening illness, I have found moments of profound clarity and gratitude, recognizing the preciousness of every single day. This journey has instilled in me a deep empathy for others fighting similar battles and a passionate drive to advocate for early detection and skin cancer awareness. With each passing year, I continue to celebrate the milestones and cherish the simple joys that were once taken for granted. This experience has taught me that our own resilience knows no bounds and that hope is a powerful force that resides within us all.
I have been constantly under the careful watch of dermatology, plastics and oncology.
My next blog will look at what happened over the next 4 years and how to keep a brave face when all around you is starting to crumble – and yes Norman will be featuring in his own way.
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